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Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Insecurities

So I have been stuck at my 17lb weight loss for a while.  Coming to terms with my body image and weight loss.  The other day my husband and I had a conversation late into the night part of it involved our personal body issues.  He said something to me that made this whole journey much more meaningful.  As I was expressing my disgust with my body and the realization that it is never going to go back to where it was, he told me he loved me because I look this way.  I scoffed and told him not to lie, to which he replied it is because I gave him 3 beautiful children and he wouldn't change that for anything.  So, as I sit here writing, stuck on a plateau at that time of the month, bloated and feeling yucky, I know that as I am taking this journey for me and will encounter these uphill battles sometimes, no matter how far I get, he will love how I look.  I feel now that I have had the personal realization that certain parts of my body will not look how I want them to after I reach my goal weight, it's okay and I should be proud of my body.  The other hangup is being self-conscious.  My brother and sister in law are here for a few more weeks and that has drastically hindered my will to get changed into my workout stuff and go sweat my butt off in the family room, for fear they might see me in all my self-consciousness.  I have never been a gym rat for the same reason, too many people there to "maintain" their physiques versus try to alter it.  I always knew this would be a learning process but I am still surprised by what I am being taught. 

1 comment:

  1. Everyone has those days. I believe in you! The closer to your goal you get, the better you'll feel on the inside about your outward appearance. You're a loving, capable person. I'm very glad you're getting healthy, taking care of yourself and setting a great example for your family. :D

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