Getting Healthier

I have come back to blogging and am starting over yet again.  I guess the good thing is that I keep trying.  Both my husband and I stopped drinking soda as of yesterday.  I had a huge caffeine withdrawal headache because of it and went to bed hours earlier than I usually do.  I woke up fitfully, still wanting to sleep but also wanting out of a crazy dream.  I was tossing and turning for at least an hour, then my youngest barges in complaining of being hungry.  One more week of vacation for the kids and then it all changes.  They go back to school and I am going to start hiking at the mountain that my daughter's preschool backs up to.  I am calling an hour to myself.  There are too many times during the week where my stress level hits max capacity and I end up yelling and being frustrated.  I have to make myself a priority this year.  I am going to take that hour, make everything else work around it so that I can have a more effective stress relief.  Putting it into practice is the hardest part but I am hopeful.

Health Scare made me do it

Welp...it's time to get off my fat butt!!! I have been slacking and making excuses all over the place.  Then I went to the dentist.  I went in for a deep cleaning, it's the year of trying to work on me.  So after almost 10 years of not going to the dentist but taking fairly good care of my teeth, I finally went. (Bonus:no cavities) The deep cleaning did not start without the hygenist first taking my blood pressure which was a little high.  To be expected, I hate needles and they were going to put a big one in my mouth to numb me up.  They waited, took it again, even higher and it just was not right.  Something wasn't right.  So I postponed the appointment and made an appointment (after having to find) a PCP.  Got in, and was determined to have diastolic hypertension.  My father has hypertension so I knew this could be a possibility. I mean I am not at a healthy weight right now.  I was put on blood pressure medicine and I immediately took myself off soda.  I have tried a soda in the last week or so but it just tastes funny now.  I am much happier with my ice water.  That is about one full month of little to no soda!!! I got back on the Kroger version of my slim fast shakes and inherited an elliptical from a family member that was no longer using it.  I am overall glad to have gone to the dentist to get the warning and get myself checked out.  Now more than ever I am working on this with the hopes that I may be able to eventually get off the blood pressure meds.  If it sticks with me the rest of my life, oh well, but now I know and am making the most active effort to get down the 80 pounds I feel I need to lose.  I will be going through all the same emotions and cravings as before but I predict I will be a little less whiney because I did this to myself and I don't want my kids to see me this way for the rest of my life.  I am done having children and can't use that excuse any more.  I want my daughters to see what healthy can be.  I want to be happy to see myself with them in pictures, not shying away from the pictures.  It would also be really cool to go to my cousins wedding next spring being a whole new me ;)

Setbacks...I am used to these

I have had a few setbacks recently.  I was doing good with my workouts and then I bent over to pick up my baby and feel a bad tweak.  My back was whacked out for the next 3 days.  Then my cycle started and that came with some debilitating headaches.  I feel like these are horrible excuses but I know they are not.  It is hard to work through certain types of physical pain.  The only thing I can do, is get back to it and not get discouraged.  Not working out has led to some psychological side effects.  I am having a hard time feeling motivated, positive and have been feeling very depressed at everything.  I have a horrible body image right now and I want that quick fix but that is not gonna happen.  It took 8 years and 4 kids to get to where I am at and it's not going to change overnight.  I want to feel sexy, I want to feel desirable to my husband.  Don't get me wrong, he loves me no matter what and has told me that more than once.  I am the one who feels undesirable and disgusting.  These are things that I know I can combat, it just takes time and effort.  It's time to stop being a lazy ass...quite frankly!!! I am starting again on Monday and just going to make it through the week, one day at a time, each one is a victory.  I just gotta keep trying because each time I have to start over, is better than doing nothing at all!

EA Active 30-day Cahllenge: Day 2

Day 2: Feeling great!  I was pleasantly surprised by how less taxing it was during the running parts.  I feel like I am building my energy back up and getting my endurance up as well.  Keep going, it gets easier.

30 Day Challenge: Day 1

After feeling great yesterday, I decided to do the EA Active 30 day challenge.  Don't get me wrong, my thighs are killing me but I feel awesome!!! I slept so amazing last night.  It helps that my 4 month old is starting to sleep better at night as well.  I am excited to do tomorrow's workout. I only had one soda yesterday the rest of the day it was water.  I am also trying to get my body back to not eating after 6pm if it can be helped.  I may take a nap today, I should have yesterday but wanted to get more laundry done.  Feeling motivated and worn out in a great way!

Back to it, I promise this time.

After a very odd and stressful couple of months, I am back to my resolution to lose this baby weight once and for all.  Today, I could only manage the EA Active for about 15 minutes.  I do have a 4 month old.  But that was also after walking the kids to school, so I consider that a victory.  My daughter has become predictable enough that after dropping the kids off at school, she has started taking at least a half hour nap.  Just enough time for me to get a work out in.  Luckily Bruiser likes doing it with me, so we both got in some good activity today.  Now that I have had my slimfast and apple/peanut butter snack/breakfast and my breathing has returned to normal, I am feeling good.  I still have lots of housework to do that I might add to my exercise log for the day.  I don't care what anybody says, that stuff can really get your heart pumping.  My husband and I have a deal...he is going to give his new job everything he can to make it successful for the next year, so I figured I could work on my fitness for the next year.  Either way, in a year, we are hoping to be in a much better place financially, healthily and with our happy kids.  Everyone gets discouraged sometimes, the key is to pick yourself back up and try again!

Getting back to it!

Had a small window of time today where the baby was content enough to try to workout.  I started on yoga and did some other games on the Wii fit disk. It felt good even though it was only 13 minutes.  The kids even did it with me.  I ended with a short distance run. It was good to get us all moving.  I am hoping it won't take too long to get back to the level of exercise that I was doing before.  It was so nice to sweat a little and exert my body.  Maybe I will get a chance to do another 15 minutes later today, we'll see.